The final jigsaw piece of this album, written & recorded little less than a year later. I got out of my winter slump, moved to Pittsburgh with an old friend & bandmate. I left behind everyone I'd ever known, all the people I grew up with. I left behind the warmest, purest love I'd ever known too. That part was the hardest. I battled daily with my decision. Eventually, we tried a long distance relationship, and she stayed with me many times over the summer. It wasn't perfect, but it was close enough for both of us. But October arrived unceremoniously, as did an opportunity to record some songs my bandmate & I'd written 4 years prior and release them on a great record label, so it looked increasingly like I wasn't going to see her all month long, and October to us is most sacred. I broke up with her under peer pressure from a good friend, and didn't think about it for 4 days until I realized what I had done and what it meant that this relationship built up over the course of years had now been halted by me over doubts. This song is me staring out a window, realizing I felt like the leaves on Autumn trees, about to deal with the death of an obsolete me that had been all I've ever known, and face the terror of uncertainty at what comes after, if anything would ever come after again.